When I originally decided enter the “blog” world I wanted to do it not only to share my love for photography but to share my life with others & express myself in a candid, real, free sort of way (I hope that makes sense). I wanted to use BJP’s blog not to find clients but to keep in touch with my friends, family, & the handful of followers I have. Although my life is sometimes consumed by my work I also spend a great deal of time being a wife to the most passionate, patient, and kind man I know, along with a daughter, sister, friend & doggy mama (Yes, I call myself their mom. Deal with it, they’re my babies for now!:)) I decided to dedicate this post to something that consumes me in a variety of ways & on so many different levels, my faith or sometimes lack there of.
I became a believer for the first time when I was in Junior High, by believer I mean someone who thought there actually was a God. That’s pretty much where it ended for a few years until I hit high school and began to really wonder & search for this God I so badly hoped existed. Growing up in a very loving in supportive family I began to explore & establish a relationship with this God, it wasn’t the healthiest of relationships on my end…I tried to make deals & arrangements with God (like I knew what was better for me than He did), that didn’t go too well as I did all the talking, bartering, & planning. There was not very much listening going on…that is still something I try to focus on daily, in my opinion listening to the One who created us & everything is the most intimate & fulfilling acts one can do.
Off to ASU I went, leaving behind my familiar midwest town & my support system. After many nights of partying, drama, & a lot of mistakes in college I decided I needed something more, something real. Since I don’t want to bore you with details I will spare you specific experiences that changed my life for the better & worse. My first year in college was a pivitol year in my life & my relationship with God. When I was lost, He found me. When I felt alone, He was there. When I turned away from Him & tried to find myself in other things, He quickly called me back. After going to a local church for a few months my life & direction began to change, God was changing my heart & I didn’t even know it. I have a handful of people to give thanks to & they know who they are. When I asked God to come back into my life he was already there.
My relationship with the Lord continues to grow & be challenged, I pray for Him to use me for His kingdom & I trust His guidance. My faith is all I have, God is the way, my life would be nothing & pointless without Him & His grace. I am humbled by His ability to love me, a sinner. I am going through Exodus & was encouraged to write this after my reading.
The Lord is my strength & my song, He has become my salvation. He is my God & I will praise Him, my father’s God & I will exalt Him. Exodus 15:2